The title sums up what this post is going to be about. I am SO exhausted... this break could not have come at a more crucial time. The week before Spring Break, I about 5 hours of sleep each night. Looking back, I wonder how I even made it through that week... with lab reports, an exam, and homework.
I have never felt so run-down before. Even when First-Year Honors Engineering programming homeworks (Post Activities, the formal name for torture) kept me awake until 2 a.m., I had easier weeks and less stress. This semester, I tell myself every week that next week will be better. When it isn't, I repeat that mantra, waiting for a week when I don't want to cry almost everyday. I think about how much work I have... how much Psi stuff I have... how much I need to do to 'prepare for my future'... and it is overwhelming.
I made a pact with my sister. We are both going to enjoy the rest of the semester. My course-load won't get easier, my Psi stuff won't get less demanding... but I am going to deal with it better. I am going to sleep more, and honestly, I'm going to try harder to try less hard. I am going to take better care of myself (read: more nail polish, lotion, journaling, and time for myself).
I'm starting RIGHT NOW. I am working to get a lot of my homework done for next week. I am not going to stress if I don't finish it, as I'll have time during the week, but I am getting a good start. Each day, I finish a little more. I am also getting caught up on Glee, blogging, and doing crossword puzzles. I practiced my clarinet for a little while yesterday, and today I went out for lunch with X-stine and Melissa, two of my H-town besties :)
I will go back to school energized, prepared, and motivated to finish the semester strong. I will not let my stress affect my relationships, and I will invest more time in my friendships. I will go to church more and pray more... I will be better all around. Here's to being better every day.
