Have You Got It In You?

"Been one of those days... "

Today has been a ridiculously long day... I'm so tired right now, and yet I feel like I should do more work tonight.  I didn't seem to accomplish a lot this evening or today.  I kind of did my laundry, but now it's hanging all over my room drying.  I tried to complete my 204 homework, but my friends and I could only finish one of four problems... which isn't very satisfying.  I went to the armory to through a frisbee around with the coaches and some of the girls from Ultimate, but ROTC people (I think) were having target practice...

I feel defeated.  I feel exhausted.  I wonder what it would be like to quit trying so hard.  To stop caring so much about grades.  To sleep more, work less.  To stop mentally organizing and assessing my life, because every time I do, I'm disappointed.  

I feel like caving in. 

Yet "Have You Got It In You?" by Imogen Heap just started playing via Shuffle on my iTunes. Stupid, I know, but the song challenges me.  I HAVE got it in me.  I just need to tap into my inner strength and drive... hopefully sooner rather than later.  I can do it; I know I can do it.  I will do it, no matter how long it takes me, how little sleep I get, or how much I stress.  I'm too determined to give up.  I will become an Aerospace Engineer.  I've come too far to turn back, so I'm looking forward.